Why do we let this happen to us?

I was in awe the other day when one of my good friends told me she felt lost and UNDESERVING of her good fortune; she comes from a stable if not a pretty wealthy family, good boyfriend and tedious amount of material things to keep a mortal soul happy.

So why was she feeling down.. lost and confused?

The word highlighted in red: UNDESERVING.

There she was, that confident spirit who would roam elite KL events felt that her existence in the world should be questioned. She does not feel belonged in a world she has always called home since the get-go.

This average height lady, with her 6 digit handbag (bought directly from Milan) has battled demons in the past and usually her antidote would be frequenting fashion shows and exclusive night events, shaking hands with the PR people who often graced her presence knowing that her perfume smelled of old money and young power.

Fergie sang ...'the glamorous, glamorous..'

Not so glamorous if demons come knocking on your window huh?
Marilyn Monroe died glamorous. Remember the classic Monroe death???
She put on her make up, beautiful clothes and overdosed herself with copious amount of pills.

Let me just quote another painful death.
Gia ( the movie that starred Angelina Jolie), the rebellious lesbian model who relied heavily on heroine just to make it through a shoot.

This heroine in the story then relied on a stranger drug-addict and stupidly shared a needle, which led to her receiving AIDS and she died.... alone in the furthest hospital bed shared by other patients.

Poor little rich girl.
Do we reach the top of the mountain and start over-thinking our failures and self doubt?

Let me quote Tyrese's blog: "Every blessing taken for granted becomes a curse. Stop going to parties and shit for photo ops, shaking hands and going home with NOTHING. Have a plan."

I hope you do. There is a FRGGIN good reason why i wrote (*) 'Miss Strong'. Maybe many would think it's just a danceable catchy tune, but shit no.

'I am miss strong,
but maybe i am wrong.'

- Chorus.

Yeah yeah, i'm not trying to toot my own horn but my point is this!!
I believe in 70% confidence, 30% humility.

SHIT. Don't let the doubt demons get you, i'm gonna roll up my sleeves and get to work when they come knocking.

Salam.



(*) Miss strong will be in my upcoming album, for now you can watch the music video here:
www.flyfm.com.my.